Inside My Brain

Mar 16

Inside My Brain

I don’t want to write a traditional blog post this time.

I have too many new insights to share and they’re too spread out.

So instead I’m going to let you peak inside my brain and show you what’s going on in there.

This is going to be unstructured and unscripted. But this shit may just change your life.

Here we go…

Fear Is Calling You…How Will You Answer It?

The best things in life come when shit hits the fan.

When we hit the bottom we have no place to go but up.

So put yourself in compromising situations. You will hate it. You will want to cry. You will want to return to safety. But don’t.

Sit in the fear. Be out of your comfort zone. Let that be your new reality.

Why? Because you can’t break your plateaus with your current level of thinking.

To ascend we must transcend.

I’m writing this based on my past 30 days in Thailand. This has been the hardest thing I’ve ever done.

On paper I’ve done harder things.

Going from special Ed kid to 4.0 GPA college kid? Check.

Going to 18+ older clubs in Baltimore City when I was 17 to learn how to socialize with women? Check.

Working 20 hours per day for 3 months to start a business? Check.

But none of that compares to the past 30 days of my life. Those things were all tough, but safety was always inches away.

I could stop if I wanted to stop. I could go home whenever I wanted.

In this situation life is different.

I’m halfway around the world in a 3rd world country where I don’t know the language or customs.

Everything here is outside of my comfort zone. I can’t be selective like I was back home.

But the only way to solve this problem is to go through it. No wrong turns. No backing up. STRAIGHT. THROUGH.

I voluntarily put myself in this position when I bought my plane ticket in December. Fear brings growth when you answer it correctly.

So what will you do? How will you challenge yourself today to be better tomorrow?

Fear is calling you…how will you answer it?

Get Yourself Into The Shit…Your Future Self Will Thank You

My first night in Bangkok was the hardest night of my life.

I was operating on four hours of sleep over two days and very little food. My flights were delayed twice and cancelled.

When I got to Thailand they lost my bag with 90% of everything I own in it. When I got to my hostel that I had already booked a month ago they said they were full. Shit was going down hill hard.

I laid in bed at another hostel for several hours trying to get to sleep, but couldn’t do it.

Now I understand why men at war can stay up for 36 hours at a time with no food. Your body doesn’t let you sleep.

I laid in that bed and cried intermittently. My room was quiet and stuffy. We had no air conditioning. My mind raced hard. I felt like I had made a huge fucking mistake for coming here. It got too real too fast.

My brain came up with a million excuses to leave. Truth be told, I very seriously considered coming back to the US. I went so far as looking up flights to come home and pricing them out. But I didn’t.

I owe so much to my parents. I told them I was planning on coming home and they told me “to give it a few days.”

They were right. I got to a hotel and was able to clear my head.

Now I’m on the other side of that tough night and it feels amazing.

My biggest victories in Thailand have nothing to do with beaches, parties, or friends.

My biggest victories are the little things.

Getting a shower after several days without one. Brushing my teeth with toothpaste after several days of not being able to. Eating a substantial meal. Finding great interent.

When you’re stripped away of the basics, you appreciate them 10X more.

As great as it’s been to view the beautiful mountains of Krabi, they’ll never compare.

When life hands you shit and you can come out on the other side, there is no substitute.

You don’t need to be anywhere but where you are.

Don’t think that all your problems will be solved by moving to a new country. Maybe things will be truly better. But if you’re not happy where you are, you may not be happy somewhere else.

Get your shit in order where you’re at and ask yourself “How can I be happy where I’m at right now?” I made this mistake back in the US.

I sacrificed too much. No car. Massive budgeting. Limited social life. Lack of freedom. These were sacrifices I made. Granted they got me here. But I could have found ways to enjoy my time there more.

So just be where you’re at and be happy with that.

You don’t have to be a digital nomad/quit your job/do anything.

Seriously. There’s nothing you HAVE to do. Being a digital nomad sounds amazing to most. I get that.

I’m not knocking it either. But don’t feel like you HAVE to do it. Even Tim Ferris doesn’t do it anymore and he’s basically the founder of the digital nomad lifestyle.

You don’t have to quit your job. You can be happy where you are. You can be happy doing anything for that matter. I know it’s hard. It’s some Ghandi shit. But it’s possible.

Here’s a book that opened my eyes to that –>  The Inside Out Revolution.

To expand this even further you don’t have to do anything. Seriously. Just about everything in life is optional if we see it that way.

You’re Fucking Important.

More than you know.

Make The Rules

You don’t have to blog. You don’t have to design. Everything is a choice.

Get your rule book and stick to it.

My rule book has changed. I’m not a blogger, even though I blog.

I’m a coach and that’s where my attention lies. These posts will still be value-packed to the gills but I’m gonna do it my way. Not what any other rule book says.

You Can Do Epic Shit

I set a goal 21 months ago to quit my job, start an online business, and travel the world. I did it. So can you.

The worst thing you can do is put me on a pedestal. I’m a person. You’re a person. Everyone is a person. Just keep doing whatever it is you’re doing. You’ll get there.

Everything I Write Is Bullshit

Credit to my coach Dave Booda. He wrote a full article on this.

I change my opinions constantly.

There’s plenty of posts on here that I disagree with now. But that’s okay. Because we’re constantly evolving.

What IF is amazing.

Stop thinking WHAT IF is bad. WHAT IF is the greatest thing that can happen to you.

I ask WHAT IF questions all the time to my clients and it opens up possibilities they never knew existed.


Approaching life from this perspective is amazing. Everything in life is either a HELL YES or HELL NO, there is no HELL MAYBE.

You Are Respnsible For Everything

Back in the US I used to live with my parents. During that time I blamed them quite often. I felt like they were a bad influence. But that was bullshit.

I was projecting what I didn’t like about myself onto them. I was blaming them because it was easier then blaming myself.

Little did I know how quickly my perspective would shift when I had to say goodbye to them at the airport. It was so hard. When I got over here their advice kept me going. They love and care for me more than anybody else in the world and I failed to see that for a long time.

But sometimes you have to travel halfway around the world to see your blindspots.

Stop Reading Blogs

Seriously. I know I’m turning away people by saying this, but stop consuming this.

Spend the next two weeks of your life away from blogs, books, etc. Instead, develop your own ideas and your own mindsets.

That’s what I’ve started doing and it’s been magical.

I Love You

Nuff said.


Photo Credit: Daniela Hartmann


  1. Ive been there and you’re right. Kudos for sticking it out! I made a journal a couple times in my life when I felt like this. It’s great to go back and see how you overcame it a year down the road.

  2. Inspirational read, Kevin. So glad you’re surviving (thriving) out there. Your post reminds me of a Tolle quote – You get there by realizing you are already there.

    I’m with you 100 percent except the stop reading blogs stuff. haha my blog friends inspire me and spark ideas!

  3. Interesting read, Kevin! I didn’t know you had that much shit happen to you at first.

    I had a similar thing happen to me when I went to Canada, but not quite as bad. But it actually turned out to the best, because I was stranded with two cool girls who were also going to Ottawa. So I got two friends before even getting to the city. Sweet in retrospect!

    “Going from special Ed kid to 4.0 GPA college kid? Check.”

    — Didn’t know that either.

  4. With posts like this one – HOW CAN I STOP READING BLOGS?

  5. Good stuff Kevin!

    I am living vicariously through you – as I was in your exact place and position 20 years ago alone in Thailand and learning so much about myself.
    What a great time and place for transformation.
    Keep up the good work and great sharing.

  6. This is a great post, Kevin. The best lessons are rarely learned from the easy times, you’ve got to dive in headfirst and learn everything you can. Keep up the good work!

  7. Some great points here Kevin! I like the idea that everyone is the same. We’re all people and we should all be treated the same as each other – with respect.

  8. Agree with reducing the amount of blogs reading.

    Although, I think that it’s more appropriate for those who relies to much on blogs to guide them when the final thoughts should always be their own.

  9. …”Youre fucking importnat”..Thanks 😉

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